Wednesday
=spring of graces=
recalling how sick i was the past week scares me. frankly, for the entire week, i couldn't live without the fever med. the fever med was the miracle that helped with the fever and bodyache. i remember there was one nite, it was so bad that i started crying. joint on my knee hurt like crazy. thoughts of cutting it off went past. it was a piercing kind of pain. at that time, i could only pray for the strength to bear it thru. i'm glad that all these are over. i guess this little tribute is for god. to thank him for all the things that he is grace me with. years of coping with youth group [who is giving problems] .. going thru life with a strange president of council ... or a-levels. for friends who choose to hate me .. for many unreasonable requests .. for playing keyboard and for driving sessions and everything. for one - i think God has grace me with much. for julian that help me see through much stuff. now that he is going to army. it is back to being strong. emily always said that i do not know how to protect myself from people who bully me. i guess part of it is true. i will just take it not that i know what the future will bring but i have to be both strong and weak. focuz on wat that truly matters. think about it, i think psalm is very meaningful. asking god for grace to pull it thru. blackest of days or darkest of nights, i will not dispare or fall short of my sanity. i will not fall as long as know that there is at least 1 friend who loves. for love has greater powers than hate or anything else. =your strength will be mine=
princess maddie.
